A few days ago, I measured my height and, uh shocked completely. I was still, stuck at 153cm, 154cm. In fact, I shrunk. The last time I measured my height it was 155cm, unless my dad probably measured wrong which really I won't be surprised. After all, his eh, whatchacall those stuff. His, this like symptom that people get when they're old something about the eyes. Anyway yeah. Egh, I'm not that shocked by the fact I've shrunked, not. I guess I didn't shrink but I probably didn't grow at all. What.? I felt that I grew taller and eh, stretched when I was next to my mom and uh dad. 

Maybe I didn't grow at all, they shrunk. Hmph, so much for the excitement of measuring my height. >:P Egh I need to grow taller bad. Like tall tall. I can't stay at 155cm like this, or even at 160cm. I want to hit 170cm and wear nice clothes that only tall people will  look good in. Like, eh nice long skinny jeans! And long nice tops which would look like, a nice long top on tall people but like, a garbage dress on uh, tiny people. I won't say short.

And homygod, I just found out about what 7 minutes ago, the music teacher actually wanted us to perform what we performed just now for music class, for the christmas concert. *long pause* WHAT?! I don't do this stuff well I mean, I was already messing up the notes just now during the performance for that xylophone thing. I was reading the notes and playing and halfway, I was like okay where are they? ( They as in my group members like Hannah was doing the piano, Ophelia doing the drums and Phoebe doing the keyboard. ) ohmygod I think I'll have like major freak out on stage or something and mess it up, more than ever. And then embarrass myself, in front of the whole school. :X

Speaking of school stuff, our school well to be precise, the house I'm in - Qing organised a school event - winter dance for like the whole school. And, I did not intend to go for it at all. First, I can't dance. Second, I can't walk in uh, heels let alone dance in them. Third, it's a semi formal event meaning, dresses. Ah as much as it seems like a lot of fun, I don't dance. So anyways, it's on I think dec 15 and I have to stay back in school till 9 to help out, because I'm in Qing as well. I guess it won't be that bad but I kinda expected my that day to be, at home at that time. :/ Hmm. By the way, I'm in music class right now and it's kind of a free period now because other people are practicing for their performance in awhile. 

I don't feel good about performing for the christmas event. I don't feel good about the winter dance. I have this horrid feeling I'm going to embarrass myself .

Lesson's over. Lunch now.