POST 263. 

I'm not feeling awesomely great right now. 

The past few days I've just been having these constant what's that, freak outs and all this, worrying about what my grades would end up like in Term 3 when Term 2 grades just ended what, a month ago? I don't know it's just nerve wrecking. I mean I haven't been doing horridly good in school ( not horridly bad either ), just average and I mean I don't want to have all 5s in my report grades this term. That would just totally suck.

I'm really freaking out. Really. I just got back my biology test grades and well considering the class average was a 4 I did do well by getting a 5 but, 5 is still just so low for me. I mean, my practical the average was a 6 and so was my cell model project earlier and adding that up, the average would most likely be an overall grade of 5 I guess :/ I need a 6 for science. Or somehow I have to like score a 7 out of somewhere. And then another thing that just pissed me off was my recent Geometry test. I just screwed the whole thing up by not revising the geometry formulas for volume and all the horrid careless mistakes. I know it's over and why the hell am I even making a big fuss about it. D: I just can't seem to get over the fact that I did so horridly bad I don't even know if I can get a 6 this time round for the test. I mean, a 7 is just out of the question now judging by the way of things. I can't screw my overall math grade up either. Somehow I have to make up in the next assignments and work extra hard to get back that overall 6 grade. Or I shall be freaking screwed. I don't even want to imagine what the consequences are going to be. All I know is that they probably don't know it but I'm so freaking pressurized right now. 

All this pressure like. I was having these panic attacks for the chinese debate and I don't think I did well in that either and just, *deep breathe in, out* I think I'm going to like have a nervous breakdown any minute. Maintaining what 6 6s and 2 5s? Ain't easy. I screw up one 6 I'll have to make up for it somehow with another subject and seriously, an overall 7 grade out of 7 for a subject? Pretty insane. D: I suppose the only chances I have with that are Art and DT. I'm really hoping my grades would either stay the same this term or go up which is, like miraculous. 

Anyway, on to some positive things. Bus rides are becoming slightly more interesting. Raoul, this year 8 kid on my bus is just such a comedian. :D Oh Raoul. He started singing a song that went like, my honey bunny and something about sugar pie. And then, something so funny happened. The in-charge of buses guy came up and told him to stand up and we all were like what happened ( usually it's something bad. ) and then, the guy was like I need to fix the back door of the bus. Phew. Then, Raoul went like I didn't do anything bad, except maybe killed my aunt in this funny squeaky voice. Following which Liam went like, "Auntie?"

And then, Raoul cracked this well joke D: He was like, " Oh cassandra, you're one of my 27 wives " or something like that and I was like, "Awww Raoul. " It was pretty hilarious. At least with a funny crazy person like Raoul around, bus rides are less boring. And speaking of that, it was so freaking hot today in the bus to the extend that I just suddenly woke up from this heavy nap because of the unbearable heat. And it's not even summer. Oh dear god D: 

AND AEROBICS. We had to do Taiji and aerobics for P.E today. Like woah. And well, it wouldn't say it was all horrid but mm, interesting. Aerobics definitely not my thing alright, we did this 5 minute routine and I was dying in the first minute. It was filled with like jumping jets, marching, swinging arms, jumping and I was just trying so hard to show some enthusiasm but all that came out of me was panting, going UGH and rolling of eyes. I ended up tip-toeing for those jumps. It was exhausting. but interesting in a way. d: Losing calories, I don't think I have a problem with calories. :X

Dinner now. I shall try to enjoy my dinner though really, every dinner's :/