POST 252.

I'm getting fed up putting up with all this.

If only I could just scream out everything right here. But then again, I might just get into some kind of trouble again for posting all that here. Infuriating really. I'm just fuming inside and then I have to act like everything's fine in front of you people. I'm sick and tired of playing this what you call those, two personalities. When I'm actually being me, I am told of an attitude problem and when I'm playing little miss nice over there, I'd actually have to put up with these things and then shut up and try not to blow.

It's been a crazy week. I'm feeling absolutely pressurized right now. The homework load has been insane lately and then I'd have these other things that I'd have to put up to. My brother just got some kind of lecture just now for having horrid grades for this term and instead of doing something about it, he just continued his computer games. So yeah he kind of, got some bad feedback from the 3 way conference today too. And then, well, he's grounded I guess? I think he can only use the computer for about an hour after dinner everyday now and right of the back, I know it's applying to me as well. Yes, that's what I get for doing well this term.

Then, I have these grades which I have. to maintain for the next term's report as well which is so utterly stressful. It's 6 freaking 6s and 2 5s. Tell me how easy is it to maintain that. It. is. not. at. all. And yes I do have to maintain those grades now because if I drop in either, I'd be given some kind of lecture for dropping in my grades instead of improving. The reason being I did so well this time ( and still, got some fabulous reward seriously. :P ) is because well, let's see. D: Miracles. Besides, it's the 1st and 2nd report combined together.

On top of all of that, I have so much work this weekend I feel like I'm going to collapse any minute. I have a biology topic test on tuesday 10 march, a humanities assignment due on tuesday 12 march as well which I have no idea how to do, another humanities essay due 2 april, art researching assignment due 19 March, P.E sociology in sports essay 1000 to 1500 words due Thursday 12 March, a whole entire worksheet of physics questions due Monday, researching for my chinese debate due monday and, a mathematics trig test on I think, 12 March too. I'm feeling absolutely and absurdly under pressure now. I have to do well in ALL the assignments if not one might just cost me my overall grade 6 in the end of the term. Yeah, the biology test alright. I never did well in tests. D: I have to get what, a 6 for that test at least so that I'd still have some chance at the overall 6 grade?

Homygod. This is really, like year 10 pressure alright. I never, ever felt that mad and about to blow before D: I can't imagine what's it going to be like when I move on to year 11 next year. Oh and then I have to worry about my this personal project which is beginning really soon too and probably work over it during the summer holidays because it's due in December, according to my math teacher.

Well suppose good news is my english teacher told me that judging from my work now and all that, it looks like I'm heading towards an A1 english class in year 12 or next year I think. So I suppose that's uh, good news. :/ 

Well whatever, I'll try to get as much done as possible. D: I can't maintain all the grades, fine. Can't do anything to change it anyway, I'm already so freaking stressed up by everything.