POST 308.

I seriously think I'm slowly losing myself.

Ever since I found out something weird about myself, I have not been myself at all. It's possibly near impossible to explain what I feel but it's a feeling of, I know that I'm acting different yet I don't know why, neither can I stop myself from doing so. 

Unfortunately for me, I ended up being moved to the front of the class, picked on in class more, all because of this misconception that I'm day dreaming in class and not listening. It's not intentional, it's just that I tend to find myself staring at the floor or out of the window, depending on where I'm sitting. Honestly, it's getting so hard to actually try and sit through the whole lesson. Yet, I do take notes although I'm not, D: feeling like myself. 

It's probably really hard to explain what I'm feeling right now but ever since I had this, "thing" I've been just awfully not myself. Perhaps it's simply the mood swings :/ Hopefully, they'll pass and I, be back to my normal self again. I swear, people are probably starting to label me as "weird". Or, it could just be the weather making me moody :O Whatever it is, I hope my days get better cos seriously, they're not that great right now. And it wouldn't be great either if I ended up with an effort grade of C on my report card just because I'm being judged on the few days which I wasn't really myself. 

I wouldn't expect grown ups to understand, I'm not even too sure of what I'm actually doing in class now. A minute I'd be taking notes, a minute I'd have a random thought, a minute I'd be staring but not in a literal sense. D: Like, just, wondering. :/ Seriously, I have no idea what I'm doing with my life.

Even this blog post is not something I'd post about. I'm getting weirder and weirder each day?

I'm suppose to think positive, perhaps it'd help D: